Remember.

waiting.

2012-02-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

Why?

Because fuck me with a rusty broomstick, that's why.

vision

2012-01-26T08:39:00.000+08:00

You want something done, you do it yourself.

ugh

2012-01-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

Feels like stabbing something.

bang

2012-01-15T13:47:00.002+08:00

Nice, you complaining first thing in the morning is just what I need. Lovely

lethargic

2012-01-14T01:07:00.002+08:00

I'm just so tired of everything.

Why do I even try?

It's just make believe.

tired

2011-12-17T01:31:00.001+08:00

Ha ha ha you're so messed up it's not even funny.

creeping

2011-12-14T02:01:00.000+08:00

T'was a good day.

111213.

3 years

2011-11-29T13:31:00.002+08:00

No where to put it, so might as well.

So I walk into a convenience stall, and see someone who looks like Eugenia. I approach her, to see her choosing sandwiches. But turns out it was someone who was dressed like her. As I apologize and leave, I walk into Ryu, who doesn't see me. While exiting the shop, I see Toshiro walking towards me, and I just run off.

Sigh.

ocean

2011-11-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

No regrets.

never forget

2011-11-13T15:08:00.001+08:00

Never forget.
Never forget.
Never forget.

prey

2011-11-03T18:22:00.001+08:00

Hide away all the things you want from everyone else and they become yours.

birds

2011-10-30T03:46:00.001+08:00

I just love how unimportant I am.

hysteria

2011-10-25T14:21:00.000+08:00

Dude get your shit together.

perceive

2011-10-25T01:25:00.002+08:00

Suck it up suck it up suck it up suck it up suck it up suck it up.

I hate it when people lie.

ridiculous

2011-09-29T07:54:00.000+08:00

This is just annoying me to no end.

pride

2011-09-26T02:09:00.001+08:00

What is the meaning behind your tears?

Does the death of a person make you sad?

Can sadness itself kill a person?

blue

2011-09-22T15:33:00.000+08:00

Emotions are stupid.

sore eyes

2011-09-21T16:38:00.000+08:00

You know what, I hate people who lie.

chasing hearts

2011-09-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

You have no right to do this.

You had no right to do this.

Look at the remnants, it's just terrible.

confusion

2011-09-17T14:39:00.000+08:00

Zzz what is this feeling?

neopolitan dreams

2011-08-25T16:10:00.002+08:00

Nope, it's raining.

Turns out that was it.

What the actual shit are you guys doing?

summer

2011-08-21T04:12:00.003+08:00

Natsu Matsuri was fun.

trains

2011-07-30T18:27:00.000+08:00

I had almost forgotten how this feels like. Wow.

apathy

2011-07-06T17:47:00.000+08:00

It's like when you're trying your best to care, but you just can't.

応援

2011-05-17T01:38:00.001+08:00

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out who am I to
Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty?

Thanks for everything.

This is a relapse. You truly don't treasure what you have until you have lost it.

star

2011-04-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

Well I'm glad at least one is around.

oh i know what i'm supposed to do

2011-04-16T01:28:00.001+08:00

たたかいの果てに得た絆

誰にも傷つけさせはしない

If I lose, I lose. If I win, I still lose.

hyper space

2011-03-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

And it's finally over after so long.

I guess there's a first time for everything.

taking turns

2011-02-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

Come to decide that the things that I tried were in life just to get high on.

Haha sometimes I think maybe this stress is getting to all of us.

I seem to be hearing the phrase 'Do or do not, there is no try.' a lot recently though.

Maybe in a month.

wax and wire

2010-11-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

I’m helplessly needless and needless to say I owe you,

Well I’d wait ten thousand picks for just one more chance,
Just one more chance, to see your face again.

Well I’d pull, teeter away, at the earth with my teeth,
The earth with my teeth to touch your face again.

You lie helplessly still as your face falls apart.

With wax and wires and hair from the back of your hands.

lights

2010-11-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ
今日はどこに行こうかな
ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ
ふたりの思い出を重ねて
ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ　ねぇ
明日はどこに行こうかな
キミといると行き先はどこも特別に變わるの

gold

2010-10-28T22:25:00.003+08:00

I need a mute button.

Story of my life.

paper

2010-10-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

Curiosity is essential to carving your own path through life.

Get too curious, though, and it'll be a short walk.

surface

2010-10-16T20:07:00.001+08:00

And here it begins.

We shall see where this goes.

small

2010-09-26T22:25:00.011+08:00

Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money.

They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with.

Some men just want to watch the world burn.

all that you can't leave behind

2010-09-12T20:11:00.003+08:00

I'm not afraid of anything in this world

There's nothing you can throw at me that I haven't already heard

I'm just trying to find a decent melody

A song that I can sing in my own company

I never thought you were a fool

But darling, look at you

You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight

These tears are going nowhere, baby

I will not forsake, the colors that you bring

But the nights you filled with fireworks

They left you with nothing

I am still enchanted by the light you brought to me

I listen through your ears, and through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool

To worry like you do

I know it's tough, and you can never get enough

Of what you don't really need now ... my oh my

I was unconscious, half asleep

The water is warm till you discover how deep

I wasn't jumping for me it was a fall

It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together

Don't say that later will be better now

You're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it

ceramic

2010-09-01T20:48:00.001+08:00

Hahahahaha withdrawal symptoms hahahahaha.

Maybe not, actually.

bird

2010-08-31T22:42:00.001+08:00

And now, what's next?

We'll see now.

What can you do when you realise what you've been doing is wrong?

voice

2010-08-29T16:01:00.003+08:00

That was enjoyable, doing things you like.

But what happened to the music every week?

As we go on, we start to realise the things we treasure gets less and less.

syndrome

2010-08-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

I like things like this.

Every week.

Talking about things we have in common and like.

zip

2010-07-22T23:01:00.002+08:00

Must it be like that?

No, that's really irritating.

Just go back to sleep.

aliens

2010-07-17T22:05:00.001+08:00

Why doesn't anything work 'round here.

It feels so wasted.

expenditure

2010-07-11T19:15:00.002+08:00

Why so uptight?

Relax a little.

You can do it.

panic

2010-06-12T01:45:00.002+08:00

Ok, I'm over it.

High hopes equals to high disappointment.

depth

2010-06-02T21:55:00.002+08:00

It's nine o'clock on a Saturday, the regular crowd shuffles in.

There's an old man sitting next to me, making love, to his tonic and gin.

He says, "Son, can you play me a memory? I'm not really sure how it goes. But it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete, when I wore a younger man's clothes."

Now John at the bar is a friend of mine, he gets me my drinks for free.

And he's quick with a joke, or to light up a smoke, but there's someplace that he'd rather be.

He says, "Bill I believe this is killing me," as a smile ran away from his face.

"Well I'm sure I could be a movie star, if I could get out of this place."

Now Paul is a real-estate novelist, who never had time for a wife.

And he's talking to David, who's still in the navy, and probably will be for life.

And the waitress is practicing politics, as the businessmen slowly gets stoned.

Yes, they're sharing a drink they call loneliness, but it's better than drinking alone.

It's a pretty good crowd for a Saturday, and the manager gives me a smile.

'Cause he knows it's me they've been coming to see, to forget about life for a while.

And, the piano sounds like, a carnival,

And the microphone smells like a beer.

And they sit at the bar, and put bread in my jar, and say, "Man, what are you doing here?"

Sing us a song, you're the piano man.

Sing us a song, tonight.

Well, we're all in the mood for a melody,

And you've got us feelin' alright.

piano man

2010-06-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

Day 2.

This is where it starts. Ooooh boy.

stuck

2010-05-30T22:40:00.004+08:00

Ahaha.

I'm sorry for forgetting this.

Sorry for being so stupid.

Won't happen again.

And it starts tomorrow gooooooo.

大丈夫

2010-05-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

Go piggy!

fweep

2010-04-28T19:13:00.001+08:00

[mo8203] [[chrimily<3] HAPPY 16TH EMILY <3 says:
*HANDCUFFS*
chester. ', says:
OH NOES
[mo8203] [[chrimily<3] HAPPY 16TH EMILY <3 says:
WAHAHA.
chester. ', says:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
BUT
I HAVE
SUPER HUMAN STRENGTH
I BREAK OUT
IM FREEEEEE
[mo8203] [[chrimily<3] HAPPY 16TH EMILY <3 says:
ER HELLO
THEY'RE MADE OF
ICECREAM
NO ONE
BREAKS OUT OF ICECREAM
HA-HA
chester. ', says:
HUH
LOL
[mo8203] [[chrimily<3] HAPPY 16TH EMILY <3 says:
I BET U DIDN'T SEE THAT COMING
WOOHOO!
I WINNN.

sempiternal

2010-04-19T00:58:00.014+08:00

(: you'll be lying if you said you were empty,
cos we filled it up.

Blessed.

straws

2010-04-18T02:41:00.002+08:00

Very bad internal clock.

Feels good that people do thank you for your effort.

Now I know what I want.

Come on holidays.

君の話

2010-04-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

君の話はもう聞き飽きた　

タバコばかりが減ってきただろう

Hopefully, never.

I wouldn't.

ニコニコ

2010-04-11T02:38:00.002+08:00

Σｄ(≧∀≦*)ＧＯ！Σｄ(≧∀≦*)ＧＯ！Σｄ(≧∀≦*)ＧＯ！Σｄ(≧∀≦*)ＧＯ！

Oh the irony.

Well, if that's what you want, then do it.

'Sides, it's their problem if they don't listen.

alternate

2010-04-04T02:50:00.001+08:00

Captain Tanaka:

It still comes in handy, for me.

That lecture you gave about death.

You told us to imagine we died today.

And we had to write about how we imagined our family and friends would feel, over time.

That day,

The next day,

A week later,

A month,

A year,

Ten years.

It was a fascinating lesson.

Uchiro's Father:

It wasn't to prepare you for death though.

It was a lesson built on the presumption that you wouldn't be dying soon.

Plus, I haven't done that one in years.

Parents complained to the school.

The principal scolded me.

Most students have never thought about their own death.

Or else it's too frightening for them to face.

But...

If they don't about death, they don't think about life.

If you keep in mind that you might die tomorrow, it will change the way you act today, won't it?

ours

2010-04-03T19:36:00.001+08:00

"It is the greatest luxury that mankind has been given.

And it's especially important to those of middle school age.

In your entire life, there is no better time to enjoy the greatest pleasures of thinking.

In developed countries such a Japan, at least, it's a time when you don't need to use your mind to think about how to put food on the table.

From the perspective of animal survival, this is a very rare phenomenon.

Most living creatures use their minds entirely for the purpose of obtaining food.

In fact, most human adults are the exact same way.

They're only thinking about how to get by. How to earn the day's meal.

Exactly the same things all other animals think about.

Adult thought processes are analogous to those of animals.

But not during the childhood years.

A time when you're free to worry about things that have nothing to do with survival.

A time for stupid things.

Naive thoughts and worries that most adults would answer by saying they have little to do with reality or working society.

But that's not a real answer.

It's just an excuse as to why they have abandoned the ability to think.

These righteous cares and worries that children hold are actually very important.

Beacuse they're not tied down to making it through the day, these thoughts are free, and full of possibility."

- Bokurano.

uninstall

2010-04-03T01:24:00.003+08:00

Kirie:

Well, I have trouble watching action movies.
It's not that I don't like exciting battle sequences.
It's just that in those movies, most of the scenes feature random people falling victim to what happens.
That's not even a problem, either.
If those events were real, that kind of stuff would happen.
It would be crazy to pretend they wouldn't.

But the people watching the movie don't ever spare a second thought for all of those anonymous extras who die.
Instead, they are extremely affected by the death of the main characters.
To me, the main character dying, and the poor people who die on the side of the road are the same.
They're all people who are living and thinking in a fictional world.
There shouldn't be any difference between them.

But as long as the hero survives and laughs with the girl at the end, it's a happy ending.
And if the hero dies, it's a sad ending.
I don't understand how that works.
To me, if anyone, any single person in the movie dies, it's a sad ending.
The only difference between those sad endings, is if the fictional hero ends the movie feeling pain for the fictional masses who die.
But that hardly ever happens.
Why do hero style main characters always end the movie smiling and laughing?
Why does the audience think that's a happy ending?

Captain Tanaka:

I think I understand what you mean.
What you're saying is also applicable to the fictional bad guys and enemies too, isn't it?

Kirie:

Yes.

Captain Tanaka:

If you assume the movies are made for pure enjoyment, then you'd want them to end happily, even if it is a lie.
Even if someone in this fictional world would be crying over what happened, as long as you dont depict it, it doesn't become a problem. It goes unrecognized.

Kirie:

That's what I don't like about it.
I think if everyone could normally understand those things, there would be fewer problems in the world.
I might be doing the right thing, but the other side might be, too.
It might be sad for me, but it might be sad for them, too.

Captain Tanaka:

Is that why you can't fight?
I see.
True, most people tend to side with their in-group; their part of society.
Just like your teacher said, they try to assign responsibility for their personal situation and choices to outside influences.
People who can't stand in another man's shoes will unconsciously choose to protect their own people.
I don't have a problem with that, but it seems like you do, Kirie.
This might surprise you, but soldiers actually think quite a bit about the things you're speaking of.

In your case, there's another world to think about, but for us soldiers, it's another nation... a competing country is the enemy.
And especially in today's world, it's quite common to meet soldiers from possible 'enemy' nations.
Sometimes you'll even get to meet their families.
And then you think, there might come a time when I have to kill this person.
There might come a time when this family will hate me, for what I must do.
But when that time comes and I'm faced with that choice, I will kill him or her without blinking.
Do you know why?

I hate to say this, but what the TV and media tell you is wrong.
The value of our lives is not equal.
It just isn't true.
From a very broad perspective it might be so, but because we all have personal emotions, our individual views are all unequal.
Anyone who says they're still the same is making exceptions for their own life.
I believe that life is important.
Very much so.
But there is an order to its importance.

People might be sad when a dolphin dies, but you won't find many who cry when a livestock pig is killed.
This is because they assign importance to these things.
That's why when faced with a choice between the death of a friend and the death of a stranger, I will always choose the death of a stranger.
This is rather paradoxical, but all life is a holon that exists as part of a whole.
If only one of two is going to survive, it doesn't particularly matter to the whole which one it is.
This is in line with what you said, Kirie.

So if there was you, and another person, and one of you had to die, you would choose yourself.
There's nothing that says the other person can't be someone you care about.
In that case, I think it says a lot about your good side.
But i get the feeling that your viewpoint exists as a reaction to other people; people who don't understand, or even try.

On the surface, my views are the same as those people you hate, but it's not exactly the same.
All human beings given life are also burdened with karma and responsibility for how to treat life.

You will not find a single person who lives without stealing the lives of others.
We eat plants, and we eat animals.
Even Christ and Buddha survived upon other living beings.
You must accept this and understand it before you sit back and glorify life.

Especially now, when surviving today is so simple and matter-of-fact, people tend to forget.
They forget what it means, to eat a pig.
They say all life is equal, but how much life is consumed to keep them alive everyday?
This doesn't just apply to other living things.
You can also say it about human beings.
That fact that you are alive, means taht someone may have died.
I think you're a smart boy,
You understand what this means.

I think that adults should understand and talk about this more, but they're all too concerned with themselves to bother.
The reason you're here today, is because you and your ancestors stood atop a mountain of other lives.
That is the karma that all living things must bear.
I'm not looking down on life at all.
I don't think that meaningless killing is a good thing.
But I don't think the killing that takes place to keep you and the person you care about alive should be ignored or downplayed, either.

That's why we have to live for the sake of all the lives we've sacrificed.
That is the responsibility that all living things must bear.
Your life does not belong only to you.
It is also the form of countless lives that have ended to keep you alive.
It doesn't matter whether you like it or not.
You are already supported by sacrifice.

So you should be thankful for that, and use the life you were given to its fullest extent.
That karma and responsibility cannot be avoided.
And if you say, I'm going to live the easy life, or I didn't want to be born, then you should choose death for yourself.
It means you can cut down on the number of lives that will be sacrificed for a wasted life.

Now, to change the topic just a bit, I believe that I've caused a lot of trouble for many people in my life.
But I can't make it up to all of them.
There are many things you can never take back.
But the one thing you can always do in return, is devote yourself to help someone else as best you can.
I guess, to rephrase that, it's just to live in a way that you can accept and be proud of.

I don't know if it will help you now, but I've found it's a good way of thinking when you're lost and don't know what to do.
Don't try for the best, just try for better.
That's all.
People try to choose the best thing or the best action, and then end up hesitating and regretting it afterward.

But you won't just find the best answer to anything, in your everyday life.
And I think that the idea of the 'best' anything is a waste of brain cells in and of itself.
Instead, just use your time to look for something 'better'.
As long as you search for something better, even if you make mistakes, it generally won't be a waste of your time.
Of course, this only counts, for those who will have a next time.

orage

2010-03-31T20:40:00.001+08:00

Third time this month.

Oh that's just wonderful.

over road

2010-03-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

And I miss the holidays already.

Concert was surprisingly good, and caught up with people that I haven't seen in a while.

bramble

2010-03-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

I hate my throat dammit.

It never freakin' heals.

And, 16 badges woohoo.

perfume

2010-03-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

Damn the holidays are over. So fast.

And I had to go out everyday except for Friday. Cuz of somebody.

Sigh.

And Sunday is homework chionging day.

Well, anyway, new blogskin yay.

My right arm still hurts, thank you very much for laughing at me.

Time to sleep.

spin kick

2010-02-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

And on a side note, I can finally cycle! (and turn)

Best Sundays of my life, thanks to him.

fly by

2010-02-07T23:19:00.001+08:00

I like being a pyromaniac.

voyager | things to thank for

2010-02-06T16:21:00.005+08:00

And on this Saturday afternoon, I finally decide to complete my list.

1. Having someone I can hug everyday.

2. A good song that I can listen to 10 times over.

3. The Carribean's, for it's amazing.

4. Pizza Delivery, for all of us that are lazy.

5. Fake flowers, for they won't die when taken care of.

6. A cold drink for a hot day.

7. Walking in the rain, for it washes away your troubles.

8. The snow, for everyone loves snow angels.

9. The sunshine, for everyone loves a sunny and cheery day.

10. Promises that are kept.

11. Given a second chance, for everyone deserves one.

12. Childhood friends, people who catch up after not seeing each other for many years.

13. The innocence of youth, where everyone didn't have trouble.

14. 'True Colours'

15. Love songs.

16. Knowing what you love.

17. Not knowing what you love.

18. Rainbows, for the pot of gold at the end.

19. Fireplaces, for it keeps you warm.

20. Bathtubs, that make us all feel squeaky clean.

21. Sleeping in.

22. A shoulder to cry on.

23. That I was raised 'poor'.

24. The safety of everyone I love.

25. For jokes that are truly funny.

26. For being able to keep a beat.

27. Laughing so hard that it makes me cry.

28. Crying so hard I lose my sadness and finding joy.

29. That I have a normal life, and no paparazzi.

30. That I am comfortable being alone.

31. That I have hope.

32. Singapore being the safe country it is.

33. For stars, and lightning bugs.

34. That I have 10 healthy toenails.

35. That I have no problem laughing.

36. For memories, no matter good or bad.

37. Cuddling.

38. Facial expressions, for truly expressing how you feel.

39. Little reminders, to make sure we all don't forget what's important to us.

40. Answer prayers, knowing that there are people looking out for us.

41. Little blessings, which means a lot altogether.

42. First heartaches; for it is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.

43. Lying on the grass, watching the clouds float past.

44. Sinking into a water bed.

45. Air Fresheners.

46. Sainou Hito Ouenka.

47. The ability to multitask.

48. Meeting someone weekly.

49. The ability to talk for hours on end.

50. Finding what matters.

51. Not knowing what to expect.

52. Going one step at a time.

53. Sleeping at the end of a long day.

54. Not sleeping to stay up talking.

55. Listening to music and not doing anything.

56. Knowing when to quit.

57. Getting what I want.

58. Fleece.

59. Invitations.

60. Great campfire chats.

61. Knowing the truth.

62. Video making.

63. Getting to do things at my own pace.

64. Personal freedom.

65. Being able to talk to those that haven't talked in a while.

66. Simple games.

67. Technology nowadays.

68. Manga.

69. Ability to stay on-task to do something for someone.

70. Disregarding haters.

71. Bump of Chicken.

72. People who try to cheer me up.

73. My privacy.

74. Weekends.

75. Weekdays, too.

76. Finding another side of people you never knew existed.

77. Baking.

78. Soft Drinks.

79. Sleeping everywhere.

80. Going home with a friend.

81. Getting a ride home from a friend.

82. Ability to maintain a friendship I want.

83. Thinking on my feet.

84. That people actually listen to what I say sometimes.

85. Those who go the extra mile.

86. An outing with a friend.

87. Ability to turn off my mind.

88. Inability to turn off my mind.

89. Looking past the obvious.

90. Growing up.

91. Old cartoons.

92. Knowing what someone else does will matter to you.

93. Knowing what you do does matter.

94. Unexpectedly getting a call.

95. Being called up in the middle of the night, and talk for hours.

96. For oven-fresh cookies, that give you a warm and fuzzy feeling.

97. Knowing that people who don't care about you don't matter.

98. Having true friends, who stand by you.

99. Being able to pour your heart our to your closest friends.

And of course,

100. Knowing that someone out there, is always looking for you.

Finally.

lem

2010-02-05T23:07:00.001+08:00

My CCA teacher is the best.

才悩人応援歌

2010-01-18T22:16:00.001+08:00

The ultimate feel good song.

I've forgotten
That I was ever good at something
That's because
There was someone who was better

I've always known
This world isn't for me
It's not a problem
If just one person's sleeping

My life is ordinary
Ordinary but difficult
Carrying on in a corner of the Earth
With nobody cheering me on
Much less any limelight
No one expects anything of this life

A lalala spills out from my lips
Just a little
A lalala that shakes the air
Such a small voice
A song only one person heard, lalala

Now I just want to forget
That I ever had any important dreams
Even if they came true
They wouldn't make me any money anyway

It hurts to know
You're not mine
It's not a problem
If just one person disappears

I bought new albums by the bands I liked
To fill the time
But when they got popular, I no longer cared
Yeah, yeah, it's all just pretty words
I never believed in any of it
It makes me want to die, it just makes me want to

A lalala welling up from your throat
Just a little
A lalala that warms you up
Such a short distance
A song swimming towards your ears, lalala

My neighbor's amazing, full of potential, talented
When someone like that
Says to work harder
Did it look like I was slacking off?
Are you just gonna agree?
It makes me want to die, I want to live

I don't belong to the world
I don't belong to anyone
I was good at something
I had important dreams

We all knew
There was no song sung for us
It's not a problem

A lalala spills out from my lips
A lalala welling up from my throat
Such a precious distance
A song heading straight for your ears, lalala

A lalala I sing for me
A lalala you sing for you
Someday it'll be a loud voice
A song for just one person, lalala

oscar mike

2009-11-21T02:27:00.002+08:00

Last day of school, finally. After almost every other school has ended.

Got back progress report, and other than that nothing much happened.

Then there was dinner with Kai Hui.

It was very nice, and if you're reading this, you should get more sleep. So you won't be so high.

Sick beansprouts.

phone call

2009-10-10T23:21:00.004+08:00

Edwin wearing the animal he killed on his head. Like Leonidas.

And they take revenge.

tantalus

2009-09-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

Taking two things I love...

and making it awesome.

you’re so zetta slow!

2009-09-03T21:06:00.001+08:00

The world ends with you. If you want to enjoy life, expand your world. You gotta push your horizons out as far as they'll go.

- CAT

and so we keep waiting, waiting.

2009-09-01T00:28:00.001+08:00

Happy teacher’s day (:

For green care-bears.

I need a giant mute button.

face of failure

2009-08-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

This jealousy is killing me.

to be the sunlight of your universe

2009-08-27T23:48:00.001+08:00

gonna, gonna make, gonna keep on going

2009-08-25T21:27:00.001+08:00

Hurting those important to you is a tough thing to do.

But doing half measures out of kindness hurts many people too.

Don’t you think?

Dare ka ni denwa shitaku natchatta nyaa~

2009-08-22T22:06:00.001+08:00

Come on and rock me Amadeus Amadeus Amadeus Amadeus

2009-08-11T21:50:00.001+08:00

How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood

into Japanese

どのくらいの木が森の木の場合、チャックチャックチャックチャック木製でしたが

back into English

If the trees of the forest tree, how the wood was CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into Japanese

森の木の場合は、どのようにCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUした木材の木々

back into English

If the trees are, and how the wood and wood CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into Japanese

場合は、木であり、どのように木材や木材CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into English

When is wood, lumber and timber? CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into Japanese

が木材、木材や木材？ CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into English

Wood, lumber and timber? CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into Japanese

木材、木材や木材？ CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

back into English

Wood, lumber and timber? CHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKUCHAKKU

I’m sure.

you can’t do it on your own

2009-08-10T01:09:00.001+08:00

Seaweed shaker fries + haze = bad sore throat.

And looks like my leg will take some time to recover.

Sigh.

cross my heart.

2009-08-09T01:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

Chester thinks Up > Gi Joe.

It isn’t always about guns and explosions.

And why of all people, him?

and altogether now-

2009-08-07T22:23:00.001+08:00

Today is pre-national day half-day! So I went for school for the half day.

WELCOME BACK SPENCER;

AND WE WON THE NATIONAL DAY MONTAGE!

And after the national day celebrations, we went back to class for potluck!

And then we went to Vivo to celebrate Hilda’s birthday. To make it a… surprise, Aisyah decided to distract her while we bought the stuff. So we bought the cakes… and were almost ambushed by Hilda. In the end, we celebrated at the rooftop.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILDA!

Then we went to watch a movie. Originally we wanted to watch ‘Up’, but at the one at 2 was sold out, so we settled for G.I. Joe. And it was awesome.

‘It’s like looking for a needle in a coalmine.’

‘Haystack.’

‘It’s like looking for a haystack in a coalmine.’

And Sharmaine’s funny. Every time I pointed out that Lee Byung-hun (Storm Shadow) was on screen, she would start giggling. Then when he ripped off his shirt she went crazy.

What’s with Korean actors and singers… they look sexually confused.

He doesn’t even look that… good?

my answer

2009-08-02T21:42:00.001+08:00

Yikes!

竟然先对我示好

2009-07-28T20:53:00.001+08:00

Ok I'm sorry I forgot to say;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETH~! SWEET 16 XD LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILLY TOO!

Many many great returns.

Ok, back to DSA.

Anyway I had to get to school by 6.45, and I overslept. Slept too later the night before, probably. So I rushed out and took the bus to Clementi Central. When I reach there it was already 640 lerh, so I knew I was gonna be late. Then I decided to take the ab.

The uncle pro larh, first I told him to go Nus High. He say ok, then go NUS. I say, no, no, Nus High. Then he go one round Buona Vista and back to Nus. Then I realised my mistake and told him 'beside Nan Hua'. Then he realised too, and brought me back to Nus High. At 7.

Early.

But I paid less, and I guess I wasn't angry or annoyed... So it's ok.

And when I went up it wasn't necessary at all. I was in fact quite early. Arghhhh.

And then the kids started to roll in. We had to settle them down, then get them changed. P6 kids changing is agonizingly slow. I could finish a meal and they wouldn't be done. Most of them insisted to change only in a cubicle, and the fact that the toilet behind the auditorium was... malfunctioning, didn't help. Each took like, 15 minutes.

Then for some reason, we started early, around 30 minutes early. So we went to our respective locations, which for me was the Chemistry Lab. And when we got there, they were still having their briefing. Terrific planning. Now everyone pulled back and played games.

So we settled on the concourse, and had self-introductions. When asked for their favourite subject and their CCA, most replied math or/and science, and some even had math/science related CCAs. Very coincidental.

Then they had their first test - Chemistry. Nothing much, really. I wasn't paying attention.

After that we had our first meal of the day - breakfast, I presume - Nasi Lemak! Wow, light!

Honestly, it wasn't that bad. Most of the kids easily finished it, I guess. Then it was Biology. Again, I don't know, I wasn't paying attention.

And then, break. This is where I recognized the energy of the kids. So we had some time, I asked them what they wanted to play. There was only one thing that caught their eyes - running. Some other group was doing it, and in turn, another group was doing it, and in turn, another group was doing it, and in turn another group was doing it, and in turn, another group was doing it. You get the idea. It was spreading like wildfire. I told them it was their break, and that shouldn't really tire themselves. But failing to convince them, I let them do it. Yea. Running. Around. In circles. Oh joy. And when they turned, they bent so much some of them fell over.

Then English. Don't know again.

Then, lunch! Wow! 1 and a half hour interval!

Again, it wasn't that bad. A really really big piece of chicken, 2 fish pieces, and some unidentifiable pieces of meat which tasted nice. And that was the problem. Because the chicken didn't really taste like chicken even though I was convinced it was chicken and it looked like chicken, some of the kids wouldn't eat it, for not knowing what it was. The unidentifiable piece of meat was the tastiest, but no one knew what it was. Some said chicken, other said fish.

Being lunch break, we had too much time. So again, a game broke out - dog and bone. At first the group next to us, Utkarsh and Raghav's, were playing among themselves. With Utkarsh's wallet. Not the smartest thing, I have to say. Then we joined them, making it 13 a team. Then Htoo came along and made it a grand total of 35+. So then we decided to stop using the wallet and use a rubber band.

That was when we were truly impressed by them. We started out calling numbers, then equations, and even things like 'all odd'. As you'd imagine, it turned into a gladiator fight. Which was kind of dangerous. And funny. And they were all damn zai.

There was this one who went for the rubber band. When the other 2 (we were playing 1v1v1, 3 teams) tagged him, he didn't move. We saw that he had put his finger in the hole inside the rubber band. Leaving his opponents confused he just grabbed it and ran. And other sorts of wacky moves and tactics.

Then Math. Along the way most of them were saying things like 'Oh boy, finally, math!'. Along those lines. Again, no idea what the questions are. Seeing a pattern?

By that time most of the helpers had realized they weren't needed then and we proceeded to the lounge to chat. About things concerning the camp. Haven't laughed to hard in a while. Things like 'shortgun' and '20 dollar burgers' popped up.

By that time it was the final break. Hi-tea!

Just some bread and cakes. And pudding.

Then physics. No clue. When they were done it was finally time to call it a long day. We brought them to the auditorium, where they were to dismissed. And one kid forgot his bag, and I had to fetch it.

Sigh.

What a tiring day.

weight of the world

2009-07-26T00:57:00.004+08:00

Today was DSA.

The words 'minus points' are like holy. It turns them into angels.

Their shoes are also oiled. When they run and turn, they drift and almost always fall.

The kids are like little Tasmanian Devils.

Someone needs to sedate them.

sandwich

2009-07-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

Chester over here wonders why people can't blog in normal and proper english.

No, really.

memories

2009-07-14T00:21:00.003+08:00

I want my memories of SIMC back.

Number 51:

I am thankful for the memories of SIMC.

That of the Duck Whistle;

The Burger King at Holland V, which I did not go to, cuz I was in hostel reading Claymore;

Stealing the mouse from the library and getting caught, and not scolded;

Stealing the mouse from home, and getting scolded for leaving the house com-less for a week;

Of KSA sleeping during their on-site challenge;

Of Emman's infinitely gay wake-up call;

Of my own infinitely gay wake-up call;

That Raghav and Stanley locked themselves in their room, and we had to bang repeatedly on the door, call their phones, and eventually got scolded for waking the family beside us;

Of the soccer ball that dropped down 10 floors below;

And, thank god, for not hitting anything;

That Je Hon has awesome bug combat skills, with a slipper and deodorant, and the fail-safe chant of 'DIE's;

For the drama there that we'll never forget, in more places than one;

And finally, for the dinner we all had together, where it seemed like we were on crack, but that we were truly, truly happy, at which point to us, everything seemed a lot funnier.

I am thankful, for I am glad.

lethargic

2009-07-11T19:58:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS AND WENLI!

Finally the video we made was given. :D

I hope you liked it!

Then, we went out. And because we didn't have pits, we had a party at West Coast Park.

And because we don't have a pit, we don't have food. As such, we ordered the awesome Rite Pizza, that I recommended. We ate Hawaiian and Pepperoni, and I really love the Pepperoni. In my opinion, it tastes better than the Pizza Hut one.

But we brought marshmallows, and chips. Then Ziyi came and delivered with more chips!

Then we... uh... cooked some marshmallows. Then they ran to burn off the marshmallow fats. Which I doubt was effective.

There was one time we were gonna try burning deodorant.

Chris: BURNING DEODORANT IS A STUPID IDEA, IT'LL RELEASE HARMFUL GASES -

*Semi shoves marshmallows into Chris' hands*

Chris: HARMFUL GASES - Ooooooh.

No attention span.

Then some people left, and we sat down and played some Dictator Game.

One person got to be King, or Queen, and ordered his unworthy minions around. Which apparently turned out to be me. I'm like the gruntiest of the grunts, and got summoned 5 times in total. Only 3 came through though. And they're all retarded.

Then... we went home. Then.. go home and sleep lor.

I'm not good at this.

things to be thankful for

2009-07-07T20:53:00.003+08:00

1. Having someone I can hug everyday.

2. A good song that I can listen to 10 times over.

3. The Carribean's, for it's amazing.

4. Pizza Delivery, for all of us that are lazy.

5. Fake flowers, for they won't die when taken care of.

6. A cold drink for a hot day.

7. Walking in the rain, for it washes away your troubles.

8. The snow, for everyone loves snow angels.

9. The sunshine, for everyone loves a sunny and cheery day.

10. Promises that are kept.

11. Given a second chance, for everyone deserves one.

12. Childhood friends, people who catch up after not seeing each other for many years.

13. The innocence of youth, where everyone didn't have trouble.

14. 'True Colours'

15. Love songs.

16. Knowing what you love.

17. Not knowing what you love.

18. Rainbows, for the pot of gold at the end.

19. Fireplaces, for it keeps you warm.

20. Bathtubs, that make us all feel squeaky clean.

21. Sleeping in.

22. A shoulder to cry on.

23. That I was raised 'poor'.

24. The safety of everyone I love.

25. For jokes that are truly funny.

26. For being able to keep a beat.

27. Laughing so hard that it makes me cry.

28. Crying so hard I lose my sadness and finding joy.

29. That I have a normal life, and no paparazzi.

30. That I am comfortable being alone.

31. That I have hope.

32. Singapore being the safe country it is.

33. For stars, and lightning bugs.

34. For oven-fresh cookies.

35. That I have 10 healthy toenails.

36. That I have no problem laughing.

37. For memories, no matter good or bad.

38. Cuddling.

39. Facial expressions, for truly expressing how you feel.

40. Little reminders, to make sure we all don't forget what's important to us.

41. Answer prayers, knowing that there are people looking out for us.

42. Little blessings, which means a lot altogether.

43. First heartaches; for it is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.

44. Lying on the grass, watching the clouds float past.

45. Sinking into a water bed.

46. Air Fresheners.

47. Knowing that people who don't care about you don't matter.

48. Having true friends, who stand by you.

49. Being able to pour your heart our to your closest friends.

And of course,

50. Knowing that someone out there, is always looking for you.

Thank you to everyone who contributed, and special thanks to KaiHui, Chris and Zikri.

Thanks alot.

gossip-mongers

2009-07-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

Tiring day it is. There was bloody drilling going on upstairs, so it was so loud everyone was just going 'WHAT? WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?'

Then for IR we had to hunt for a place to finish our script. My class had french, and other classes we went to either had people inside or drilling directly above us.

Eventually we decided to camp out in the concourse.

Where we promptly started getting distracted.

All the effort came from Chris, who single-handedly finished the storyboard. Good job.

Err yeah.

Don't ever let what we said escape.

Little boy and phat man signing off.

sad

2009-06-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

No more holidays.

Crap.

somewhere else

2009-06-28T01:33:00.012+08:00

Oh, I'm not done with Transformers.

I just read another article about Transformers.

http://www.cracked.com/article_17400_8-shittiest-transformer-disguises.html

Now what was the motto of Transformers?

'Robots In Disguise'.

Now, they're trying to disguise themselves from being alien robots. And some of these disguises make them as conspicuous as a... well, an alien robot, really.

I'll let you read the article.

#8. Cosmos

When choosing a vehicle to avoid attention, "alien spaceship" ranks somewhere below "mobile fireworks factory" and "giant mobile fireworks factory that's on fire and being driven by a bear in a tuxedo." Tell people you saw a giant robot and they'll think you're crazy. Tell them you saw a UFO and they'll still think you're crazy, but point you towards the huge network of radio talk show conspiracy nuts dedicated to believing your story.

They occasionally tried to justify Cosmos by having him do a space mission. This was only slightly undermined by the fact that both sides had spaceships and in fact, depending on who was writing that day, every single Transformer could just stand up and fly into space anyway.

Where He Would be Disguised:

Look at him. He'd not only have to wait until spaceships are invented, but until cheap budget-model economy spaceships are developed, and then pose as a novelty toy of one of those.

#7. Nightscream

Nightscream appeared in the Beast Wars series--where all the Transformers returned to Cybertron to fight each other, while transforming into animals from Earth. He turns into a bat that was apparently designed by a person who has never seen a bat before. We almost wonder if anyone looked over the designer's shoulder, concerned and a tiny bit confused.

Executive: And you're sure you've seen a bat before?
Designer: Yeah, man, I got this. They're sort of like rabbits, but with gorilla arms, right?
Executive: It's just that I'd feel a lot more comfortable if you'd at least look at this picture of a ba-
Designer: Guy, I am on this, OK? I know what bats look like. Long fingers. Giant orange backpack. This is a homerun for me, now get outta my office.
Executive: Uh... OK.

Where He Would Be Disguised:

Nightscream would feel right at home in whatever zoo his designer attended in his nightmares as a child. Absolutely nowhere else though.

#6. Metroplex

Metroplex turned into an entire city, which made him slightly harder to hide than the law of gravity. While it's conceivable that a brand new, unrecorded metropolis could escape notice if everyone on Earth was retarded--and if there's one thing the plots of 80s cartoons told us, it's that they were--once you get within the borders the illusion breaks down. Maybe you'll notice that every building is a solid, primary-colored block with no features, or maybe the total lack of inhabitants will be the clue that tips you off.

Of course, this assumes that he's not a real city where people go to work and live. If he is, that brings up a much more troubling question ...

Where He Would Be Disguised:

We're going to assume he was a fake city, based on the fact that he still has some cars stuck to his shin guards up there. In that case, his only real option is background work on the set of a Hollywood film.

#5. Omega Supreme

Omega Supreme transformed into a giant rocket, linked to 100-meter rail track that went nowhere, on which was stationed a tank the size of a city block. The Autobots realized he was difficult to hide, and when the guys who dress up as giant, idiotic microscope robots recognize how conspicuous you are, you might have a pretty profound problem.

They stuck Omega in the middle of a wilderness where no one could ever see him, and where his ability to disguise himself would surely come in handy. They also tended to forget that he was the size of every Decepticon in the universe put together, and could have ended the war in one metal-mashing minute had anyone ever bothered to roll out and ask him to.

'Perceptor! Come with us to fight Megatron! Omega! Go hide in a field! Autobots! Transform and roll out like retards!'

Where He Would Be Disguised:

Wherever the other giant-rockets-and-tracks are kept on Earth. What's that? There aren't needlessly long miles of race track attached to an enormous rocket? Well, then he's just retarded everywhere, isn't he?

#4. Rippersnapper

Rippersnapper turned into a shark, and if that didn't make him the Decepticon Definition of Bad Ass Metal Teethy Death, the creators decided to bless him with arms and legs, which theoretically would make him unstoppable. Until, of course, a designer looked at him and said "No no no, I don't want him to have cool arms. Give him some gay, little T-Rex baby arms. Yeah. F*ck this robot."

Rippersnapper would have been formidable enough as a robotic shark, but by giving him arms and legs, he was doomed to wander the land. And by making those arms and legs unapologetically shitty, he was doomed to do so looking like a total idiot.

Where he Would be Disguised:

In some kind of freak show petting zoo with three-eyed fish, one-legged frogs and any other abominations designed by a thoughtless creator.

#3. Nosecone

Nosecone could transform into a Cybertronian drill-tank. You may notice that "cybertronian" and "drill-tank" aren't Earth words, in which case well done, you're twice as good at disguise as Nosecone was.

He had a tendency to "hide" by simply drilling underground, which you'll notice isn't technically camouflage, thereby altering famous Transformers "Robots In Disguise!" tagline to the simpler and lamer "Robots Somewhere Else!"

Where he Would be Disguised:

He could maybe paint the number "4" on his side and hide in a Thunderbirds episode.

#2. Swoop

All the Dinobots qualify for this one: They're "disguised" as extinct species except able to talk, painted red and yellow, and just in case you're a colorblind deaf-mute who doesn't understand which direction time goes, they're made of metal. In fact, these are the only Transformers who couldn't even fit in back on their home planet of Cybertron, since it never had animals - so they're not just badly-disguised, they're actually anti-disguised even on a world where giant robots are normal.

Swoop is the worst: at least the others get some advantages from their complicated genesis (a marketing executive thinking "What else do nine-year-old boys like?"). In a war that always degenerates into fist fights, despite everyone owning or in fact being energy weapons, T-Rex, Stegosaur and Triceratops are the top things on the "Useful things to be" list. Turning into a clumsy and medically retarded animal when the enemy consists almost entirely of F-15s? That makes his transformation a total triple-changer of suck: he can't fit in on Earth, or at home, and gets deservedly beaten on both.

Where he Would be Disguised:

Swoop's best bet at disguise is to fly up and smash all the lights so no-one can see him. Oh, and everybody is inside. And sedated.

#1. Sky Lynx

Sky Lynx: plastic-molded proof that while it's OK for Renaissance artists to use drugs for inspiration, toymakers should steer clear. He looks like a Space Shuttle that got pissed on absinthe and stumbled into a Mythical Greek mix, on top of a nuclear reactor. His only possible camouflage option is passersby refusing to believe what they just saw.

You might ask "How can something turn into a space shuttle, an animal beast and a bird?" The only answer (apart from the counter-question "Why would you want to be a goddamn bird when you're already a space shuttle?") is to say "Space Shuttle, no problem, and a mumblemumble, got it." To say that Sky Lynx's other modes look like anything at all would be a horribly generous overstatement. In fact, Sky Lynx doesn't even have a robot mode, meaning he's the only Transformer EVER to f*ck up both parts of "Robots in Disguise."

Where he Could be Disguised:

If you ever find somewhere Sky Lynx would be adequately disguised, tell Lovecraft we said hello and please don't try to come back.

king of pop

2009-06-27T01:48:00.005+08:00

Let's look at Transformers!

For a film called such, you would expect to see robots punching more robots, followed up by more punching, right?

Well, you won't be disappointed.

However, there's a bucket load of comic relief characters inside.

Oh yea, let's count em.

Sam's parents, that's 2.

His F*UCKING annoying roommate, who only knows how to squeal, that's 3.

His roommate's Legion of Nerds, that's 5.

Mini-me, the border guard, that's 6.

Wheelie, called Wheels here, the toy car, that's 7.

The racially insensitive twin cars, Mudflap and Skids, that's 9.

The NSA guy who replaces asks Optimus Prime and all the other Transformers to go back to whence the came, that's 10.

The black guy with the buckteeth that talks like a machine gun regarding pulleys, in Seymour Simmons' butcher shop, that's 11.

Simmons himself (former Sector 7 agent), that's 12.

Simmons' MOM, that's 13.

And finally, the University Professor that thinks he's Brad Pitt, that's 14.

Wow.

You think that's enough?

And Sam is really kind of stupid.

At the start of the movie he drops a shard of the All-Spark, turning his kitchen into a circus of hell. He calls Bumblebee and he jollily comes smashing into the house, destroying the Decepticons.

Then, he chases Bumblebee away, seconds right after HE WAS ASSAULTED BY THE DECEPTICONS AND ALMOST KILLED.

What?

Why?

Weren't you almost killed?! And who doesn't want a Camaro that listens to your every order?

Oh and, the Decepticons just decided 'screw this shit', and started turning into everything that isn't a car or automobile.

Oh sure, the Autobots played by the rules, becoming Stingrays and Camaros and trucks and Hummers.

But the Decepticons can turn into marbles, boomboxes, wolves, blenders, and other sorts of things.

Very nice.

And now really, this was a kid's film.

Why did they have so many adult themes?

There's not one, but TWO scenes of two dogs doing their business.

Devastator's two huge, dangling objects.

John Turturro's package.

And Wheels doing god knows what to Megan Fox's leg.

And Megan landing on Leo's sensitive spot.

And then there's Mudflap and Skids. They're like Jazz in the first movie, but 10 times worse.

Jazz had like 5 seconds of screen-time where he did racially insensitive stuff, and that created a lot of hoo-hah.

Now comes along Mudflap and Skids, the Jar-Jar Binks of Transformers, embodying racial stereotypes.

That's just great.

Anyway, the end it off, here's to Michael Jackson, king of pop.

Who may forever be remembered for his awesome dancing, and revolution of the pop world.

And not that other thing.

夢中でMotor Bike、風を追い越して.

2009-06-26T01:36:00.007+08:00

All day yesterday,
My cellphone’s call signal kept going off.
An out-of-tune fuzz guitar,
In a strange park.

On my motorbike, oblivious,
Overtaking the wind.
The crescent moon is history,
Above me.
The earth is my goal line,
The dogs and the lions,
Are all moving on to Venus.
It’s kind of annoying.

A yellow moon.
Keep on counting,
To three, and open your eyes.
Shadow moon.
Still dreaming.

Look in my eyes, look in my eyes.
As we stand with our backs to each other.
Look in my eyes and tell me,
Yes or no?

Every day every night
I want to tell you right now, with words of love.
About my love for you.
Every day every night,
With an ordinary signal.
I want to tell you about this feeling that’s out of control .

Feeling fine, with you this time,
Holding each other in a golden church.

Yellow moon,
As the moon wanes in the night sky.
It shines with a serene smile once again tonight.

Look in my eyes, look in my eyes,
As we stand with our backs to each other,
Look in my eyes and tell me, yes or no?

Every day every night.
I want to tell you right now, with words of love,
Every day every night.
About my love for you.

Every day.

A magic code change,
In this sleepless town.
A jazz guitar playing a soft minor,
That changes every day.

back off.

2009-06-25T02:26:00.015+08:00

Well everyone I know has got a reason,

To say,
Put the past away.

I wish you would step back from that ledge,
My friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies,
That you've been living in.

That's what I wanna tell myself.

1. In case of a fire you: take what's with me and get the hell out.

2. If you see a dead cat on the road you: ignore it.

3. When you see an aeroplane coming to crash into your house you: run like hell.

4. In a fight, you: are not part of it.

5. If you're bored you: look for things to do.

6. When you're in a relationship you: invest.

7. In a relationship the most important thing is: honesty.

8. If a person of the opposite sex told you they love you: think.

9. When you've lost the person you love, you: think.

10. In a jungle you: will survive.

11. If you're alone & you see a person of the opposite sex crying alone you: ignore the person. Unless [I] know her.

12. When in the night and you see a full moon you: stare at it.

13. In life you: live.

14. If you could be an animal, you would be: a wolf.

15. When it's raining you: stay indoors.

16. In this world, you: live in it.

17. If you became a millionaire you: might not be happy.

18. When you love someone, you will always think of: her.

19. In the toilet you: do your business.

20. If you found out the person you love doesn't even like you, you: ignore it and move on.

21. When you grow up you: become older.

yellow moon

2009-06-24T02:23:00.007+08:00

I found out recently that if you try to leave a little kid in a graveyard late at night, he'll freak out. Even if you offer to leave him a gun to protect himself. Why? It's because on some instinctual level, all humans know it's just a matter of time until the zombies show up.

I'm reading an article about how the world can end in a zombie apocalypse.

I'll even be nice and share it with you.

http://www.cracked.com/article_15643_5-scientific-reasons-zombie-apocalypse-could-actually-happen.html

#5. Brain Parasites

What are they?

Parasites that turn victims into mindless, zombie-like slaves are fairly common in nature. There's one called toxoplasmosa gondii that seems to devote its entire existence to being terrifying.

This bug infects rats, but can only breed inside the intestines of a cat. The parasite knows it needs to get the rat inside the cat (yes, we realize this sounds like the beginning of the most fucked-up Dr. Seuss poem ever) so the parasite takes over the rat's freaking brain, and intentionally makes it scurry toward where the cats hang out. The rat is being programmed to get itself eaten, and it doesn't even know.

Of course, those are just rats, right?

Well...

How it can result in zombies:

Hey, did we mention that half the human population on Earth is infected with toxoplasmosa, and don't know it? Hey, maybe you're one of them. Flip a coin.

Oh, also, they've done studies and shown that the infected see a change in their personality and have a higher chance of going batshit insane.

Chances this could cause a zombie apocalypse:

Humans and rats aren't all that different; thats why they use them to test our drugs. All it takes is a more evolved version of toxoplasmosa, one that could to do us what it does to the rats. So, imagine if half the world suddenly had no instinct for self-preservation or rational thought. Even less than they do now, we mean.

If you're comforting yourself with the thought that it may take forever for such a parasite to evolve, you're forgetting about all the biological weapons programs around the world, intentionally weaponizing such bugs. You've got to wonder if the lab workers don't carry out their work under the unwitting command of the toxoplasmosa gondii already in their brains. If you don't want to sleep at night, that is.

You may be protesting that technically these people have never been dead and thus don't fit the dictionary definition of "zombies," but we can assure you that the distinction won't matter a whole lot once these groaning hordes are clawing their way through your windows.

#4. Neurotoxins

What are they?

There are certain kinds of poisons that slow your bodily functions to the point that you'll be considered dead, even to a doctor (okay, maybe not to a good doctor). The poison from fugu (Japanese blowfish) can do this.

The victims can then be brought back under the effects of a drug like datura stramonium (or other chemicals called alkaloids) that leave them in a trance-like state with no memory, but still able to perform simple tasks like eating, sleeping, moaning and shambling around with their arms outstretched.

How it can result in zombies:

"Can?" How about "does."

This stuff has happened in Haiti; that's where the word "zombie" comes from. There are books about it, the most famous ones by Dr. Wade Davis (Passage of Darkness and The Serpent and the Rainbow). Yes, the movie The Serpent and the Rainbow was based on this guy's actual science stuff.

What is definitely true is the story of Clairvius Narcisse. He was a Haitian guy who was declared dead by two doctors and buried in 1962. They found him wandering around the village 18 years later. It turned out the local voodoo priests had been using naturally occurring chemicals to basically zombify people and putting them to work on the sugar plantations (no, really).

So, the next time you're pouring a little packet of sugar into your coffee, remember that it may have been handled by a zombie at some point.

Chances this could cause a zombie apocalypse:

On the one hand, it's already fucking happened! So that earns it some street cred right off the bat. But, even if some evil genius intentionally distributed alkaloid toxins to a population to turn them into a shambling, mindless horde, there is no way to make these zombies aggressive or cannabalistic.

Yet.

#3. The Real Rage Virus

What is it?

In the movie, it was a virus that turned human beings into mindless killing machines. In real life, we have a series of brain disorders that do the same thing. They were never contagious, of course. Then, Mad Cow Disease came along. It attacks the cow's spinal cord and brain, turning it into a stumbling, mindless attack cow.

And, when humans eat the meat ...

How it can result in zombies:

When Mad Cow gets in humans, they call it Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease. Check out the symptoms:

Changes in gait (walking)
Hallucinations
Lack of coordination (for example, stumbling and falling)
Muscle twitching
Myoclonic jerks or seizures
Rapidly developing delirium or dementia

Sure, the disease is rare (though maybe not as rare as we think) and the afflicted aren't known to chase after people in murderous mobs. Yet.

But, it proves widespread brain infections of the Rage variety are just a matter of waiting for the right disease to come along.

Chances this could cause a zombie apocalypse:

If the whole sudden, mindless violence idea seems far-fetched, remember that you are just one brain chemical (serotonin) away from turning into a mindless killing machine (they've tested it by putting rats in Deathmatch-style cages and watching them turn on each other). All it would take is a disease that destroys the brain's ability to absorb that one chemical and suddenly it's a real-world 28 Days later.

So, imagine such an evolved disease, which we'll call Super Mad Cow (or, Madder Cow) getting a foothold through the food supply. Say this disease spreads through blood-on-blood contact, or saliva-on-blood contact. Now you have a Rage-type virus that can be transmitted with a bite.

Just like the movie. With one bite, you're suddenly the worst kind of zombie:

A fast zombie.

#2. Neurogenesis

What is it?

K we're heading into Science now.

You know all that conversy out there about stem cell research? Well, the whole thing with stem cells is that they can basically be used to re-generate dead cells. Particularly of interest to zombologists like ourselves is neurogenesis, the method by which they can re-grow dead brain tissue.

You can see where this is going.

How it can result in zombies:

Science can pretty much save you from anything but brain death; they can swap out organs but when the brain turns to mush, you're gone. Right?

Well, not for long. They're already able to re-grow the brains of comatose head trauma patients until they wake up and walk around again.

Couple that with the new ability to keep a dead body in a state of suspended animation so that it can be brought back to life later, and soon we'll be able to bring back the dead, as long as we get to them quickly enough.

That sounds great, right? Well, this lab dedicated to "reanimation research" (yes, that's what they call it) explains how the process of "reanimating" a person creates a problem. It causes the brain to die off from the outside in. The outside being the cortex, the nice part of you that makes humans human. That just leaves the part that controls basic motor function and primitive instincts behind.

You don't need the cortex to survive; all you need is the stem and you'll still be able to mindlessly walk and eat and enjoy Grey's Anatomy. This is how chickens can keep walking around after they've been beheaded (including one case where the chicken lived for 18 months without a head).

So, you take a brain dead patient, use these techniques to re-grow the brain stem, and you now have a mindless body shambling around, no thoughts and no personality, nothing but a cloud of base instincts and impulses.

That, ladies and gentlemen, is what we like to call a real, live, undead f*cking zombie. So there.

Chances this could cause a zombie apocalypse:

Think about it. Under every legal system in the world, all rights and responsibilities are terminated at death. All it takes is someone with resources and a need for a mindless workforce of totally obedient slave labor.

How long until somebody tries this? We're betting somebody in the world, maybe North Korea, will have a working zombie by Christmas.

#1. Nanobots

What are they?

Nanobots are a technology that science apparently engineered to make you terrified of the future. We're talking about microscopic, self-replicating robots that can invisbily build--or destroy--anything. Vast sums of money are being poured into nanotechnology. Sure, at some level scientists know nanobots will destroy mankind. They just can't resist seeing how it happens.

How it can result in zombies:

Scientists have already created a nano-cyborg, by fusing a tiny silicone chip to a virus. The first thing they found out is these cyborgs can still operate for up to a month after the death of the host. Notice how nano scientists went right for zombification, even at this early stage. They know where the horror is.

According to studies, within a decade they'll have nanobots that can crawl inside your brain and set up neural connections to replace damaged ones. That's right; the nanobots will be able to rewire your thoughts. What could possibly go wrong?

Chances this could cause a zombie apocalypse:

Do the math, people.

Some day there will be nanobots in your brain. Those nanobots will be programmed to keep functioning after you die. They can form their own neural pathways, meaning they can use your brain to keep operating your limbs after you've deceased and, presumably, right up until you rot to pieces in mid-stride.

The nanobots will be programmed to self-replicate, and the death of the host will mean the end of the nanobots. To preserve themselves, they'd need to transfer to a new host. Therefore, the last act of the nanobot zombie would be to bite a hole in a healthy victim, letting the nanobots steam in and set up camp in the new host. Once in, they can shut down the part of the brain that resists (the cortex) and leave the brain stem intact. They will have added a new member to the unholy army of the undead.

Now, it should be more than clear by this point that our goal is to be responsible researchers. We don't want to create a panic here. All we're saying is that on an actual day on the actual calendar in the future, runaway microscopic nanobots will end civilization by flooding the planet with the cannabalistic undead.

Science has proven it.

Now, I'm not adding any pictures here (except for that one) cuz they're scary. Yup.

I probably shouldn't be reading this at this time.

just one block of sugar, thanks

2009-06-22T00:43:00.005+08:00

Hello, I like Shaun of the Dead. It is funny.

Epic.

dancing in september

2009-06-21T00:43:00.041+08:00

Do you remember?
The 21st night of September?
Love was changing the minds, of pretenders,
While chasing the clouds,
Away,

Our hearts were ringing,
In the keys that our soul, were singing,
As we danced in the night,
Remember?
How the stars stole the night away?

Ba-de-ya,
Say do you remember?
Ba-de-ya,
Dancing in September?
Ba-de-ya,
Never was a cloudy day,

No admittance, without the Fruit of the Night.

Hey, wait, hey, what are you doing?

Hey, no, hey, stop that!

That can't be good.

Look, you've summon the God of Space and the God of Time! Trying to play God here, now are we? Is it really so wise to mess around with the time space continuum?

Hey wait... what's that...?

OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE WHAT'S THAT DEAR LORD OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP WHAT'S THAT WHAT'S THAT OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP

OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP ITS TEH DEVIL AND HE'S SPEWING BLACK STUFF OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP I TOLD YOU NOT TO OH CRAP OH CRAP OH CRAP

AIYEEEEEEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHH TEH DEVIL GOT YOU AIYEEEEEEEE

Great. Now there's this big black swirly thing in front of us. Just great. I have to jump in, don't I?

Wonderful.

Just spiffy.

I WILL PUNCH YOU, IN YOUR SOUL! JUST YOU WAIT!

P.S. Chris, I hope you learnt your lesson. Heh.

PHANTASMOGORIAAAAAAA

2009-06-20T01:58:00.007+08:00

Well, thanks to Spoony, now I've got Cells stuck in my head! But, well, I like it, so that's ok.

Anyway, last night I watched Giratina and the Sky Warrior. Yes, the Pokemon movie. It's ok, same old, same old. I like Dawn's Prinplup in the movie though, very entertaining.

And Shaymin's voice actor is just OBNOXIOUS. I can't really describe it, but it really gets on my nerves. It's like, super prickly. Very... dominating?

Oh, and regarding the new Naruto chapter?

DANZO IS LYING. STOP LYING YOU BIG FAT LIAR.

Yea, well. I really have no more material for today's post. I'm out, cuz I didn't watch much Pokemon today.

So maybe I'll have a proper post!

Let's see.

Hmm.

Well...

Uh...

Nah.

I'm out.

Maybe I'll think of something tomorrow.

Ba-bomb.

mugen

2009-06-19T01:17:00.009+08:00

Hello, all you kids out there! Today, we're gonna have something special!

Everyone, let's welcome Professor Rowan to give us not one, not two but FIVE tips to life!

Hold on to your hats and scarfs, and let's dive in!

Ok, Number 1!

Don't loiter about for no good reason.

Oh yes indeed, loitering makes you look a thug, and no one wants that! We should all be law-abiding citizens!

Here we go, Number 2!

Don't interrupt others while they are attempting to converse!

Very much so! Not only is it very rude and ungentlemanly/ladylike to interrupt someone while they're talking, it makes you look like a barbarian too! No one wants that! We should all be polite and gracious people!

Boys and girls, Number 3!

If you don't get in your way, don't raise your voice to be intimidating.

Uhh, grammatical error here I think; BUT NONETHELESS! What a great lesson this is! Why bother someone, when they aren't bothering you? If you are nice to someone, they'll be nice back! We should all be friendly people!

Come on we're almost at the end; Number 4!

Don't think you've grown strong just because you're in a group.

We all know the saying 'Strength in numbers,' but Professor Rowan just says 'Screw you' to that saying and gives us a fat big -

Well, it's Professor Rowan, and how can he be wrong? While we are weak as individuals, ~~we have strength in numbers~~ we are still weak in numbers! We should be... uh... weak(?) individuals!

Boy oh boy, here we are, at the last one!

You can be sure it's a GREAT lesson for everyone!

Last but most definitely not least, Number 5!

What is with those outlandish outfits you have on?

Of course! Professor Rowan has an awesome sense of fashion, and if he deems your clothes unworthy, THEY HAVE TO GO! Throw away those unsightly scarfs and hats, and be like him! Wear a lab coat! Spectacles! Old boots! Be part of this new trend now! Be a fashionable person!

Wait, what?

i love the power glove. it's so bad.

2009-06-18T01:11:00.015+08:00

Moonwalker is awesome.

And so are Pokemon promos!

Ohhh yes. It is.

This video is so informative. Ash's aunt is so supportive.

Oh yes you heard right. Aunt.

His aunt Hillary. Indeed. I have definitely heard of her.

Yea, this was my reaction too when I first saw her.

Oh, but that's not all. There are his cousins and his science teacher.

The cousins say that Team Rocket is bad. Well duh. Bad at catching Pokemon, that is.

And his science teacher is awfully supportive of Ash, him being a very good student in his class. He even explains how Pikachu's electricity comes about.

Even Misty has her own fan-girl!

When they said they were gonna take America by storm, they weren't kidding.

I want to be the best there ever was.
To beat all the rest, yeah that's my cause.

Electrode, Diglett, Nidoran, Mankey
Venusaur, Rattata, Fearow, Pidgey
Seaking, Jolteon, Dragonite, Gastly
Ponyta, Vaporeon, Poliwrath, Butterfree

Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all
Pokemon!
I'll search across the land, look far and wide,
release from my hand the power that's inside.

Venomoth, Poliwag, Nidorino, Golduck
Ivysaur, Grimer, Victreebel, Moltres
Nidoking, Farfetch'd, Abra, Jigglypuff
Kingler, Rhyhorn, Clefable, Wigglytuff

Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all,
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon!

Zubat, Primeape, Meowth, Onix
Geodude, Rapidash, Magneton, Snorlax
Gengar, Tangela, Goldeen, Spearow
Weezing, Seel, Gyarados, Slowbro

Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, yeah!
Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, yeah!
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon!

Kabuto, Persian, Paras, Horsea
Raticate, Magnemite, Kadabra, Weepinbell
Ditto, Cloyster, Caterpie, Sandshrew
Bulbasaur, Charmander, Golem, Pikachu

At least 150 or more to see.
To be a Pokemon master is my destiny.

Alakazam, Goldeen, Venonat, Machoke
Kangaskhan, Hypno, Electabuzz, Flareon
Blastoise, Poliwhirl, Oddish, Drowzee
Raichu, Nidoqueen, Bellsprout, Starmie

"Woo! We're at the halfway point, doing great so far."
"We? What's all this "we" stuff? I'm doing all the hard work!"
"Breaktime's over, here we go!"

Metapod, Marowak, Kakuna, Clefairy
Dodrio, Seadra, Vileplume, Krabby
Lickitung, Tauros, Weedle, Nidoran
Machop, Shellder, Porygon, Hitmonchan

Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, yeah!
Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, yeah!

Articuno, Jynx, Nidorina, Beedrill
Haunter, Squirtle, Chansey (Pokemon)
Parasect, Exeggcute, Muk, Dewgong
Pidgeotto, Lapras, Vulpix, Rhydon

At least 150 or more to see.
To be a Pokemon master is my destiny.

Charizard, Machamp, Pinsir, Koffing
Dugtrio, Golbat, Staryu, Magikarp
Ninetales, Ekans, Omastar
Scyther, Tentacool, Dragonair, Magmar

"Whoa, catch your breath man. Shake out those lips."
"It's downhill from here, just 24 more to go."
"Now it gets tricky so listen real good."

Sandslash, Hitmonlee, Psyduck, Arcanine
Eevee, Exeggutor, Kabutops, Zapdos
Dratini, Growlithe, Mr. Mime, Cubone
Graveler, Voltorb, Gloom

"We're almost home!"
Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, yeow!
Gotta catch 'em all, gotta catch 'em all, huaw!
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon!

Charmeleon, Wartortle
Mewtwo, Tentacruel, Aerodactyl
Omanyte, Slowpoke
Pidgeot, Arbok
That's all folks!

Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all (oowww)
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon..
Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all (oowww)
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon..
Catch 'em, catch 'em, gotta catch 'em all
Gotta catch 'em all, Pokemon!

They put Poliwag as Poliwrath, spelt Lickitung wrongly, and put Geodude as Graveler.

And to quote Lucas from the Wizard;

I love the Power Glove. It's SO bad.

And on a completely unrelated note, I learnt a new word today!

'Leng lui'.

New trendy word of the day: 'CROSS - STITCH'!

You know, Pokeballs! P-O-K-accent-E Balls!

2009-06-17T02:01:00.013+08:00

Yea, you know, P-O-K-accent-E Balls! Of course. I think this guys has issues. ADHD, I think.

The holidays are halfway through and what have I accomplished? Nothing. So, being the bored person I am, I went to look for a play through of Pokemon YELLOW.

I have to say, remembering that, Pikachu's defense really sucks. And he's perfectly useless against the first gym. In fact, Pikachu was one of my weakest pokemon. Meh.

But who cares? Remember the days when Pokemon's slogan was still 'Gotta Catch Em All'? Ahh. And the music from those games were just plain awesome. The battle music(s) still bring back memories.

And of course, the crazy enemies.

Back then, Team Rocket carried whips, because, well, THEY WERE HARDCORE AND THAT'S HOW THEY ROLL. I mean, look at that, FREAKING whips. So much has changed. They toned down the violence, made it more kid-friendly and removed the whip. Team Rocket's like full of wussies now.

And look, a SUPER NERD. How awesome is that? I know it doesn't make sense, but what the hell, it's a SUPER NERD. Why don't they have enemies like that anymore?

And look, JESSIE AND JAMES (where's meowth?). What happened to them in the video games? We all used to love them. And their cool (?) entrance speech.

Prepare for trouble!
And make it double!

To protect the world from devastation,
To unite all peoples within our nation.

To denounce the evils of truth and love,
To extend out reach to the stars above.

Jessie!
James!

Team Rocket's blasting off at the speed of light,
Surrender now, or be prepared to fight!

Meeeeeoooowwwth, that's right!

Man, that was great.

Pokemon special's great too, since the beginning. I really like Diamond in the new chapters. Like his dopy look and him being the stooge. Kind of like me. Hmm.

Now come on everybody, let's do the PEARL DANCE!

cost effective

2009-06-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

Now that's just complete and utter bullcrap.

I need a proper post soon.

aim for the horns!

2009-06-13T19:37:00.004+08:00

Horn + Lightning = Good

"I can't believe that worked!"

Indeed.

Now that's just wrong.

Ash is a cheating bitch. Even Action Replays can't do that. Clearly Ash has learned to modify the game's coding itself. And, of course Swellow is clearly an Electivire in a bird costume. It's the only logical explanation how it survived the bloody thunder.

Otherwise Ash could just be Zeus in disguise f*cking with all of us.

And I killed Shen Gaoren.

Yay!

Remember.

waiting.

vision

ugh

bang

lethargic

tired

creeping

3 years

ocean

never forget

prey

birds

hysteria

perceive

ridiculous

pride

blue

sore eyes

chasing hearts

confusion

neopolitan dreams

summer

trains

apathy

応援

star

oh i know what i'm supposed to do

hyper space

taking turns

wax and wire

lights

gold

paper

surface

small

all that you can't leave behind

ceramic

bird

voice

syndrome

zip

aliens

expenditure

panic

depth

piano man

stuck

大丈夫

fweep

sempiternal

straws

君の話

ニコ ニコ

alternate

ours

uninstall

orage

over road

bramble

perfume

spin kick

fly by

voyager | things to thank for

lem

才悩人応援歌

oscar mike

phone call

tantalus

you’re so zetta slow!

and so we keep waiting, waiting.

face of failure

to be the sunlight of your universe

gonna, gonna make, gonna keep on going

Dare ka ni denwa shitaku natchatta nyaa~

Come on and rock me Amadeus Amadeus Amadeus Amadeus

you can’t do it on your own

cross my heart.

and altogether now-

my answer

ニコニコ